I try to convince myself that it doesn’t matter, but it does – it always does. The feelings to be wanted, to want someone are not easily discouraged Whenever it starts, I always tell myself, “Don’t get your hopes up”, “It is only temporary”, and then, it hits me — I get excited I enjoy the company, and then, I have hope that maybe, this is it this might be something real, but it never is. There won’t be someone great.