It was all a dream

This evening is about missing that ex-boyfriend you know you shouldn’t, but I guess it feels a little good having those dreams, doesn’t it?

Big Sur, in its dreamy morning fog | R.D. Boucher, 2020, CC-BY-NC-ND

I know I need to stay away,

the dreams — they just won’t stop today,

your face is fixed within my mind

I’m forgetting why you were out of line

It will never be the way it was

when it was never a thing

that you could call something,

Still, I dream of you more

than the years before,

It doesn’t carry sense

and it makes me crave

what it felt like to be sore

after

I will keep us

suspended in this space,

So, I can avoid running into you

one of these days

and we will stay as we were

when it was a dream,

and we didn’t yet know

that we weren’t meant to be.